Five years. And it hasn’t gone out yet. But maybe it ought to. You’d think after five years of being driven absolutely nuts by The Way Things Are, I’d have gotten sick of pointing out what’s really as plain as the nose on Ben Grimm’s face.
You might be right.
It’s a long time to be doing anything for basically nothing other than the joy of seeing your name in print. Not that I should be making a dime off of this. I’m undisciplined and lazy when it comes to my critique. You, after all, are getting what you paid for, are you not? Dance, blogger, dance! Well, here I am doing the softshoe with my tin cup in hand, bellhop cap on my head.
I didn’t quite know where things were going to end up once I signed on to start Full Bleed back at Broken Frontier those years ago (blaeme Graeme if you must point a finger at anyone: he got me to write a fill-in column for him there after striking up an acquaintance by way of Millarworld.) Truth be told, I’m still not so very sure of where this is all going to end up. Back then, I had written a draft of a thing called Strangeways (that bears little resemblance to the book you read today, partially thanks to the original artist, partially thanks to Robert McKee, but that’s a long story.) I figured a column might be a good way to get my name out there.
Maybe it was. You have to understand, the comics blogosphere back then was, well, a different thing. No Heidi, no Tom, though Dirk was busting his butt on a daily basis when he wasn’t being Managing Editor of THE COMICS JOURNAL. There was a Blog-o-Tron 3000 that you could use to see updates on all, what, fifty blogs? If even that. There’s probably fifty blogs (including this one) that are being updated this very minute. Trying to figure out how many of them are worth a damn reading is an exercise best left to the reader. I’ve been winnowing lately. Must be the weather.
Those days were seeing the end of the Jemas era at Marvel, and like I suspected, all those guys who were whining about how terrible it was then all were in an uproar six months after saying “gee, wasn’t it great when Bill and Joe were in charge?” You remember the Epic revival? I sure do. Made my pitch even, though I never received a flat-out rejection, which I’ve been told by people who’d know, was a good thing. Yes, this and three dollars will get me a cup of coffee. Room for cream, please.
Hell, there wasn’t even an Identity Crisis then, just an oblique reference to an upcoming “Crisis” from Luthor in BATMAN/SUPERMAN (of which the first story arc is crammed with insane goodness that only superhero comics dare to deliver.) We knew what was coming, just not how crazed it would ultimately become (and hasn’t even ended yet, nor will it, no matter the protestations to the contrary.) I wonder how many dollars it would take to get The Whole Story if you rolled it all the way back to 1983 and Crisis on Infinite Earths, anyways?
How much has actually changed for me? Comics wise? I finally got my book done, my way, Sinatra-style and all. But that was a near thing. It’s like when you’re waiting for your child to speak and finally hearing “dada” and being overjoyed. The time between that and “when the hell are ya gonna shut up?” is pretty short. Metaphorically speaking, of course.
What that has changed is more subtle than you’d think. Not that all doors are opened for me now, being an anointed author and all that. But things are different now. They simply are. I’ve said what I needed to say. Perhaps more than once, since it feels like I’m repeating myself every time it comes to say something about comics. And I have. Let’s be honest now.
There’s other things to say.
To be sure, the jellied gasoline in my heart is still there, though I worked hard to keep it under wraps. Maybe too hard.
Not to worry. I’m not going anywhere. Well, I am. Just not away.
As it is, though, I've got some comics to make. Not earthshattering, not the best comics ever, not topping the charts, surely in need of an editor, but they're mine to make. Nobody else is going to.
And before my editor FREAKS THE HELL OUT, no Marc, I'm not quitting. You'll get something by Monday next.
Maybe.